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This is my very 1st blog post, hopefully it will turn out ok.

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Hello, I decided to finish 2017 by deleting my Twitter account, this morning at 6.30 am, just prior to starting work. Why before work? Well, the weekends are generally quiet and apart from a bit of administrative paper shuffling before the shift starts, there’s not really much to do and I wanted look up some videos on YouTube to keep me occupied between patrols.

I met a lot of great ppl on Twitter over the 10 or so years I was there, some very intelligent, professionally employed hard working ladies & gents and also many down to earth, hard working souls just using the forum to ‘Blow off steam’ or tell those who would listen what they think of their favourite sporting team, politics, their children, job and religious ideals. My decision to leave social media behind was made over several days, possibly a week, it wasn’t an easy decision and I am going to miss many of the friends I made, both long term and some over the passed few months. Some wished me well, I will be keeping in touch via email, some others were less forthcoming.

I like to try my hand at repair/renovation jobs around my house, which lately, coupled with a wet winter and a slight cash flow problem, fell by the way side. Painting, building a security gate and a big clean up of the man cave are now firmly on the horizon. My fitness level has also dropped and my waist line has increased, as has my weight. But I will get there, issues will be addressed and I will build myself a routine to keep busy, watch less TV and return to a better, more positive, less anxious, less stressed frame of mind. I should also mention that there’s a lot of high quality independent writers here, if you don’t already know. I’ll be availing myself of their blogs, musings & stories. Just because they aren’t household names doesn’t mean there’s not hours of planning, investigation, writing, editing, rewriting, cover selections and publishing deadlines to deal with. I for 1 am in awe of their abilities, dedication to their craft and sanity in stressful times. 👏🏻

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Letting go

Finally, I’ve extracted myself from the clutches of social media and the associated pitfalls. This afternoon I reached the point of complete frustration when it comes to trying to maintain communications with other users, some that I thought were friends, others not so much friends as Twitter associates who I shared common interests with.

Let’s face it, there’s people in this world, me being 1 of them, who liked to see just how many followers I could attract, just by being myself and agreeing with what others posted, I didn’t always agree with 100% of their opinion, however, in the interests of maintaining the friendship I was willing to lower my standards, we’ve all done it, whether it be on social media, at school or at the office, no one likes to stand out for the wrong reasons. Not going to subject myself to that any more, I have my own beliefs, ethics and standards that I’ve maintained for a long time, social media works its tentacles in to your brain with the end goal of reprogramming users, stripping away the layers of decency & morality, all in the name of destroying society via a tool who’s ONLY intended was brainwashing the masses. I fell for it, as many millions have too.

What now? Well, I’m going to do something I should’ve done many many years ago, I’m going to try to re-invent myself. Declutter my brain from all the negativity that’s been absorbed from years of accepting failure as ‘The Norm’ then create new positive thoughts & habits, improve my mental health as much as I can by following guidelines & practices from respected life coaches, and push myself to improve my overall intellect. One person on Twitter pointed me in the the direction of WordPress, she didn’t say “Go check it out” so much as have the link on her twitter page. After my first post she told me to keep going, use it as a medium to get rid of frustrations, post ideas, thoughts and the like. I left that wonderful person behind on twitter, maybe 1 day she’ll look me up here and see that I’ve gone forward in my life, become the better person I want to be. Thank you, Emersen Lee. I know I drove you mad for the short time we exchanged pleasantries & a few laughs. I know now my actions came off as creepy, that was never my M.O. I didn’t realise heaping praise and respect on you could be construed as a negative thing. I’ve always been of the opinion that to receive respect, you must first show and that’s what I did, I guess I just went too overboard. All I wanted was to talk and be friends, but alas I stuffed that up and now I have to live with that. I felt inferior to the other men you converse with. They’ve had impressive lives, are more intelligent than I could ever hope to be, they’re articulate in how they communicate whether that be via social media, some of their replies, or the words they used would totally escape my mind. A lot of them served their country, something I couldn’t ever do, then gone back to their lives and continued to be successful in what their endeavours were. You’re naturally drawn to men like that, especially cops.

Now it’s time to end this entry and go in search of new horizons to aim for. If you’ve read this far down, thank you, it’s much appreciated.

-Ross